Birthday Plans for LUBDUB

For the last 4 years of our relationship, each time that Toxs celebrates his birthday, I always make sure it’s special.

On his birthday in 2009, I planned a joint birthday party for him and his best friend, Rhaian. His birthday is March 5 while his best friend is March 3. I invited all their ONCHING friends – the friends he had since college. (Onching means sex daw in gay lingo!) That was also the first time I met all of them. They were all nice to me and even welcomed me as a part of the group.

In 2010, I made him a special birthday video that showed some of the pictures I took with our favourite music playing on the background and with captions that despite of him being:

1) Dead Hungry (As in patay gutom! Sa payat niyang yon, ang laki ng bodega!)

2) Sleepyhead (Isa siyang MASA – masandal lang, tulog!)

3) Head Turner (Kaso ang lingon, away from him!)

. . . I still love him so much! ♥♥♥

At that time, he was thinking of getting a new phone, so to his surprise I got him a N70. It was only a second hand though. I also drew a picture of us together and an also gave him a birthday card to tie it all up.

He was overjoyed! He said he never felt appreciated in his entire life until that day! Oh well, what the sweetest girlfriend can’t do?

Back in 2011, we had another double celebration. (Para tipid and memorable!) We decided to have Zephyr’s christening and his birthday all at the same time. To make it special, I designed the tarp, with him holding Zephyr, and had it printed super-size! It’s like 4 meters x 2 meters. I also asked my girlfriends to bake a red velvet cake for him with buttercream icing. I just edited a picture of him, made it look like that of Che Gueverra, I just made it in green, red and yellow. He’s a self-proclaimed Rasta, so he loves anything reggae.

He loved everything! He still has that tarp and his reggae’d picture.

Then in 2012, the biggest and the most expensive birthday present ever - a concert ticket to Smash Project 2012 in Aranata Coliseum (Thank youuuuuuuu Araneta! Concert queen lang ang peg!) featured our all-time favourite bands; The Used, Dashboard Confessional, Chicosci, Urbandub and Typecast.  But wait, there’s more! The Cab (Ang pogi nila sobra!), Cobra Starship, One Buck Short and Slapshock.

For an awesome rock and rollin’ concert, smile on lubdub’s face and an unforgettable birthday experience, the tickets that cost me P8, 600 ($215) were worth it! I’d definitely spend it again just to make him happy! We definitely had a blast! ☺☺☺

And for this year, the time flew so fast, I wasn’t able to plan for something extra special yet. I thought of having a full body massage with buffet at Wensha Spa, we could use the sauna and Jacuzzi. However, they don’t have couple massage and we can’t be together since they have gender segregation. I searched on the Web, and found Nuat Thai which offers couple massage for a cheap price. We haven’t experience it yet and it’s been a long time that I wanted for us to have a bit of pampering. Then, I heard about Vikings Mall of Asia’s Birthday Promo. You can come to the restaurant on your birthday with one paying adult, present your ID or birth certificate bearing your DOB and you can eat for free! Since we love food tripping, this would be the best gift.

Last night, I went to their Facebook page, posted a message about my reservation on March 5, dinner time, I gave my contact information and within just about 10 minutes, I got a text message from them confirming my reservation. I was just a breeze!

Since we also want the little monsters to go swimming, we decided to try Swim @ Cecile’s at Casimiro, Las Piñas on March 7 with my biyenans (Tox’s parents).

I’m so excited!☺☺☺

There’s always an Exception

Lately, I’ve been having serious discussions about men being cheaters naturally. I agree on that for sure. I have friends and colleagues who had other women; I had ex-boyfriends who cheated on me and my mother even caught my own father having an affair. However, it doesn’t mean that all men in general, will do the same thing on you. And for that matter, it doesn’t mean it will happen to me too. Not to me.  Not my Toxs.

I may sound idealistic; however I believe in my heart that the man I’m spending my life with now will not do anything like that. He will not ruin our relationship or my trust nor even break up the home we both worked so hard to build. I have faith in him. He loves our kids. He loves me.

I am only human, he also is. We make mistakes. We are subject to temptation. It’s all in our nature. Though we cannot be perfect as couple or we cannot have a perfect relationship because there are times that we argue on trivial things, we could always try to be perfect for each other and create that connection that both of us can only understand.

I have never felt secured in my life until I was with him. I never had that so called women’s instinct. He might have broken my trust once because of smoking when he said he already gave it up, but never the faith I put on him that I am his only woman. I don’t have to explain myself or go to any further details on that. It is what it is. We both respect each other. We put God in the center of our relationship. And that only matters.

Maybe I can say this because we know how to communicate with each other. We say what we feel, what we think with no holds barred. Maybe because he always makes me feel that I am loved and appreciated. Maybe it’s because of that sweet caress on my head while we are watching TV, kisses on my forehead while I was sleeping, laughter we shared on a lame joke or maybe it’s because of that amazing lovemaking we always have.

Generally speaking, we cannot easily ditch that ‘men-are-cheaters mentality’. Men may have different reasons why they cheat. They may be getting in touch in their inner caveman – they like to play fire. It may be because they got bored with the relationship, there’s no connection or spark anymore; or maybe just because they can. Whether its evolution, biology or simple novelty, men do seek different sex partners. However, the decision whether to cheat is entirely in a man’s control. And it also boils down to one thing: you have to know when to put a leash on your man.

So, even it happens to you, just your luck. It didn’t mean that it can happen to everybody else. There’s always an exception.

A Conversation with My Little Man

This afternoon, while I was watching Kourtney and Khloe Take New York, I decided to ask questions to Zephyr, just to check his level of understanding and to my amazement here’s what he had to say:

Me: Zephyr, I will ask you something, okay?

Zephyr: Hmmm… Okay!

Me: What song you do you like?

Zephyr: Hmmm… Twinkle, Twinkle Star! (Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star)

Me: Eh, what food do you like? Me, I like pizza!

Zephyr: Rice! Like Rice!

Me: What else?

Zephyr: Rice lang! (He really likes rice with lots of ‘sabaw’.)

Me: What do you like watching on TV?

Zephyr: Hi-5! Timmy! Jake and Pirates! (Jake and the Neverland Pirates)

Me: Eh, what’s your favourite toy?

Zephyr: Like play blocks!

Me: Zephyr, where’s Tatay?

Zephyr: Go to work!

Me: How about Nanay? Do you like it when Nanay goes to work?

Zephyr: No! Like Nanay stay house lang!

Me: Why naman?

Zephyr: Stay house lang! Play with me! (Then he gave me a big hug!)

I was surprised! I know Zephyr is a very intelligent kid but I didn’t know that I can have this kind of conversation with him. I thought he’s not paying attention to whatever I say. I realized that I just have to talk to him more often, with no distractions – TV, toys and snacks. It threw me off all the more when he said that he didn’t like me going to work. I never thought he would say that. To think, he’s only 2 years old and he cares! My little boy is growing so fast, hopefully I can catch up!  ☺☺☺

An Answered Prayer

“Every girl’s dream is to meet a prince, to have that greatest love story and to live happily ever after.”

TOXS, the every beat of my heart <3

I admit, for once in my teenage life, I dreamt of marrying a knight in shining armor who will save me from despair and will offer the world right on my feet. But when you started to grow up and see the world in a different perspective, you will realize that life is no fairy tale. Not every guy you meet will treat you as you want to be. And having a wounded knee is better than having a broken heart. Love is not many splendored things.

When I came of age, I asked God to give me someone who is faithful, responsible and loving. I prayed for someone who will never deprive me of the essential things in life – food, shelter and money; someone who will always be there in ups and downs and will never leave me no matter what the circumstances are; someone who will love me for what I am and will accept my flaws; someone who will never ever have any third party or extra-marital affairs and I prayed hard for someone I can grow old with. I didn’t even know I was praying for Francis Bondoc.

Tokidoki or Toxs, as I used to call him, came into my life unexpectedly. I was not even looking for love because I was mending a broken heart back then. I was too tired and fed up of all failed relationships and ex-boyfriends who didn’t even see my worth. Hallelujah! Toxs arrived just in time and saved me from my misery just before I lost faith in love. It’s God, not love that moves in mysterious ways. We didn’t know each other like John Smith know Pocahontas or like Beast know Belle. It was like the Savage Garden’s hit song, “I knew I loved you before I met you”. Though we barely know each other, the friendship blossomed into something new, something fresh, something you called “love”. When we took our relationship to the next level, I’ve decided that we call each other, “LUBDUB” – our so-called terms of endearment. It is because, medically speaking, that’s the sound that your heart makes, each time it beats. With every beat of our heart, we vow to love each other forever and ever. Amen!

Meeting him was fate, loving him was a choice and now I know why it didn’t work fine with anyone else. God, indeed, heard me well – He was an answered prayer.

And I will never get tired of thanking God for him.   ♥♥♥

A Journey to Forever

 “Good relationships don’t just happen; they take time, patience and two people who truly want to work to be together.”

I‘ve been in and out of relationships and had a few heartbreaks. I was never even looking for love until I knew Toxs. We are in the same circle of friends; however I didn’t know him personally. In fact, I haven’t even met him. I got acquainted of him when one of our friends sent his number and we began exchanging group messages.  Our journey to this thing called forever all started with his aching knee.

Yes! You read it right – aching knee. If I remembered it correctly, it was June 16, 2008 when he sent a group message saying that he hurt his knee when he was playing basketball. I used to ignore his group messages except this one. I was in my Sociology class at that time and was so sleepy; I texted him remedies that could alleviate his pain. I also felt obliged to do it since I was a nursing student. It’s a good way to share what I’ve learned.

That few exchanges continued as the day passed by. We got to know each other and found out we are into the same stuff: rock, alternative and reggae music, indie films, out-of-towns, scary movies, cats and dogs, amusement parks, PSP games and the list go on… We also like watching “Witch Yoo Hee”, the South Korean Drama Series shown on GMA 7. I felt something inside me however I know it’s too soon to entertain the thing called “love”. Besides, I didn’t even know if he was feeling the same thing. He used to sing me the theme song of Witch Yoo Hee, Imago’s “Migraine”; it goes like this. ‘Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo. Hanggang dito na lang ako. Umaasa na mapasayo’. I found out that the feeling was mutual.

What we had was not the conventional type of a relationship. It might even get your eyebrows raising.  It was July 3, 2008 when we decided to take our friendship to the next level. We haven’t seen each other in person yet. So to validate our relationship, we met at SM Mall of Asia. The first meeting was nerve-cracking. This could make or break our relationship.  At first, it was a bit awkward; it’s like testing the water. Until, he uttered some picked up lines and I cracked up some jokes. It calmed my nerves and we got comfortable. We ate, watched a movie and watched the sunset.

Time flew so fast that it was time to bid goodbye. He walked me to the bus stop home. While we were walking, he was asking me when the next date will be. I said I’ll check my sked first and I’ll just text him. I was not attracted to him and I know he felt the same way. His look was too rugged for me. His hair was all over the place. His shirt was a bit too loose. And he doesn’t look like his age. I'm not saying he didn't look good, in fact, I thought he's kinda cute. I might sound picky! But mind you, my past boyfriends were all good-looking. (It’s me, it’s me already!) However, above all the ambivalence, I felt something inside me that wanted to continue with the relationship. I felt secured.

The first date led to another, then another, and another… We were inseparable. Our friends even noticed that we were really getting serious in our relationship and might even settle down.  They were right. Two years later, we had our first bundle of joy – an adorable baby boy who we named Zephyr. And now we are going to the fifth year of our relationship; there’s another member of the family – our giggly baby girl, Zakiah. We couldn’t ask for anything more. Our family is complete. We just had to validate our love for each other before God; but that would not be after 2 years!

Though our relationship remained stronger through the years; I can’t say it was perfect.  we had our ups and downs, our differences and own opinions.  Our love is greater than all the petty fights and hang-ups we had.

And that was our journey to forever…